ep 18 – When You Think You’ve Ruined Love Forever

Most women believe their affair means they’ve destroyed their chance at love. But what if the moment everything fell apart was actually the moment your life cracked open? What if it was the doorway into the deepest love you’ve ever known?

In today’s episode, I share the truth I wish someone had told me years ago - that deep love isn’t effortless or pretty. It asks more of you. It requires honesty, vulnerability, and letting someone see the parts you’ve hidden your whole life. And for so many of us, that depth didn’t feel safe until everything collapsed.

I talk about my own marriage, the years I stayed silent, the IVF journey I carried alone, and the affair that forced me to finally look at the parts of myself I’d buried. And I share what it’s taken to experience the kind of love I’m in now — the kind that meets me, holds me, and asks me to stay present instead of disappearing.

If you’re scared you’ll never be loved again… or terrified you’ll ruin it all a second time… this episode will help you see what’s actually possible for you.

You’re not broken.

You’re not behind.

You’re on the edge of your becoming.

•  What You’ll Learn in This EpisodeWhy the moment you messed up might be the moment everything finally opens

• The difference between surface love and deep love - and why you stayed on the surface for so long

• How emotional disconnection made the affair almost inevitable

• Why you didn’t know how to ask for comfort, closeness, or to be held

• What real intimacy actually requires (and why it felt terrifying before)

• How your nervous system shapes your capacity for love

• Why you’re not incapable of deep love, it just wasn’t safe for you yet

• How allowing yourself to be seen changes the kind of love you can receive

• The truth that you abandoned yourself long before you betrayed anyone else

• Why this moment in your life might be the beginning, not the end

If this episode has touched something in you…

Wednesday 10th December is the final Softening Session of the year.

And, actually, the last one ever in this format.

It’s called Rising From the Ashes of 2025 - a 90-minute space to breathe out the weight of this year and come home to yourself before it closes. You don’t need to share. You don’t need your camera on. Just come exactly as you are.

If you want to end this year held instead of alone,

you’re so welcome to join us.

👉 Join here