about alex croxford
it’s lovely to meet you
My marriage began on a warm spring day. It was the kind of wedding you see in movies—I wore the big white dress, gave a speech, and danced until the birds started singing.
I was ready to walk off into my happily ever after. I had it all – or at least, I thought I did. A thriving career, an incredible husband, Gucci handbags and a house with a side return extension. I was fiercely independent, always in control… and, I now realise, completely disconnected from myself.
A few months after the wedding, I was ready to trade the party lifestyle for motherhood. But when I discovered I had fertility issues, things began to unravel. Trying to conceive became an obsession. It was the first time in my life that working harder didn’t guarantee success. And the feeling of losing control was unbearable…
I had no idea how to process what was happening.
I hated crying, avoided my emotions, and instead of facing the grief, I did all that I could to numb it. I drank more. Partied harder. And then, the unthinkable happened: I betrayed my husband.
I loved him. So how could I do this?
The guilt was suffocating. The shame, unbearable. I spent nights curled up on the bathroom floor, silently battling anxiety so he wouldn’t know anything was wrong.
When I finally told him, our world shattered. We tried everything, weekly couples therapy, our own therapists, coaching, but after a year of fighting for our marriage, we had to face the truth: it was over. At the time, I thought my life had ended. But now, I see it was the beginning of something far greater.
For years, I believed the problem was him: his emotional unavailability, his distance and his inability to love me the way I needed. What I now realise is that he was mirroring back to me the exact walls I had built around love. I was rigid. Perfectionistic. Terrified of vulnerability. Craving validation. And I had betrayed myself years before I betrayed him.
"Affairs don't happen because a woman is bad or broken. They are a symptom of something far deeper."
My ex doesn’t blame me for the end of our marriage. And after years of doing the inner work, I’ve finally forgiven myself too. Because now I see the truth: When we are disconnected from ourselves, we look outside of ourselves to feel seen, heard and alive.
So often, we don’t realise how disconnected we are from ourselves. We’re busy leading our lives: cultivating successful careers, creating beautiful homes, raising children. All too frequently, the wake up call comes from us acting in a way we never thought we would.
For me – for you too – it was an affair. After years of my own healing journey, I know this to be true: Hurt people hurt people. But healed people? They love differently. And the moment I stopped running, from my wounds, from my fears, from my own body, everything changed.
I learned to soften. To face difficult conversations instead of avoiding them. To feel my emotions without drowning in them.
And because of that, the love I experience now with my partner Adam is beyond anything I ever imagined. The depth, the connection, the intimacy, it’s everything I once thought I wasn’t capable of.
"“I want you to know this: you can make mistakes in love, and still be worthy of it"
The work I do is not really about affairs, but about love; how to receive it, how to give it and how to live a life led more greatly by love than anything else. I work with women to break free from the old patterns keeping them stuck. To open your heart. To create deeper, more meaningful relationships. To finally let go of the guilt, shame, and overthinking that have been running the show for far too long.
If you’re here, it’s because a part of you knows there’s more waiting for you. More love. More self-trust. More freedom.
And I can help you do that.
I’ve walked this path. And I’m ready to walk it with you, too.
my manifesto
i believe…
You didn’t do this because you are a bad person. I’ve worked with hundreds of women, and I know this to be true: affairs almost always stem from a pattern of perpetual self abandonment and internalised shame that you didn’t even know you were carrying. And, until we break that cycle and release the shame that your body is holding, nothing will change. My work is not about letting you off the hook, but about turning the pain of your affair as a wake up call to transform your life and welcome deeper love and intimacy with yourself and with another.
my methodology
The BodyMind Intimacy Method
Where most approaches help you to understand what went wrong in your relationship, my unique approach - The BodyMind Intimacy Method - is designed to get to the root of why this happened and work to release the shame from the body, break the patterns that caused it, and open you up to a deeper love than you ever knew was possible.
I work with the whole self - mind, body, soul - to create real, lasting change. I am trained in VITA™ Sex, Love & Relationship Coaching. BodyMind Maturation Method ™ and Holistic Health Coaching.
I combine:
Body based practices
Breathwork
Meditation
Profound personal transformation
Trauma healing
Lived experience
Energy work
Pleasure practices
there is life and love beyond this.
Here’s what I want for you: to wake up without the shame weighing heavy on your chest. To trust yourself once more. To know you’re not the awful person that you think you are. To open your heart to a quality of love, with yourself and in your relationships, that you didn’t know you were capable of. To feel truly alive - in your own life.
When you're ready, I'm here.
